Kurrs' Digital Tapestry of Words

I love K-os so much.

And Sarah is more like pale moonlight shining off of frozen crisp snow. Static and beautiful, fragile and sharp. Water is more like... Meggers.

Deep weakness for dreadlocks.

To answer the unspoken query from Niko, I am glad I went. Sin City is funny, because it involves stripping away so many barriers and being around some of the most beautiful people I've ever known, I tend to react. Sometimes I have alot of fun, sometimes I get really emotional and upset. Last night was definately the second for me. There was definately good things, like when Ty and Niko rubbed my back/head. Fuck, that was sex. And there was some other nice stuff, and dancing alot, but I still mostly ran around being upset.

But as I said to Bevan, I don't think pain is bad. It's necessary, good, as apart of human experience as joy. Pain means things have meaning, and I wouldn't do well in a world without it. Hopefully I'm not too much of a emotional burden on everyone while I'm in this down state. It's why I tend to hide from the world when I get really upset: No one should have to deal with this shit.

However, this time it seems to come along with actual loneliness. Fuck, what's up with that? Like, now, I honestly fear being alone sometimes. Urg. I'm still a loner, so these conflicting emotions (want to be alone, scared of being alone) are really annoying. Hopefully this is temporary.

Remember, "This is an emergency..."

*wanders off humming k-os*