Inspired
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It's hard living in your own skin.
I went to the meeting with Yan and Garrett and it was probably the most productive meeting we've ever done. Used to each others' strengths and weaknesses and understanding the nature of this particular beast better than last year, it felt good. I realised I shared no courses with Garrett and was a little saddened by it. Afterwards, I spent time with Yan, taking the 41 bus to the 16th corridor with him. I spoke of the last year and my optimism for the upcoming one, still judging the new year by the start of school. I let my natural tone slide through, softer and weaker, I let the touch of sadness shine through and I'm glad I did. Being more myself is difficult, and painful, but more real and ultimately more good for me.
I think the fact that maple syrup just comes out of trees might be the coolest thing on the planet.
I got off the bus, and the blue sky and softly blowing leaves and the light and shadows they created caused me to smile. I spat and thought I will be happy in spite of you, life and was saddened by that particular ideology. There are equal parts bad and good in this world, for every awful thing I can mention a joyous thing and vice versa. The litany of elation and suffering could go on forever. You choose whether the cup is full or empty, because it never really is either.
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