I obviously need to get laid if everytime you complain about something, I just think that we could have sex as a solution.
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I obviously need to get laid if everytime you complain about something, I just think that we could have sex as a solution.
It is good to remember where you come from.
My game is good, but it doesn't matter. It either isn't good enough or there is some deep and persuasive rot that pushes others away.
I see the hooks working, worming their way into you, and slowly - piece by piece - I think you probably are coming apart for me. But it won't matter. There will be an other: he will burst forth in your mind like a supernova and he might as well be named David for all the irony that that would carry.
When you like things, you like them a lot. Me, my dear, you do not like a lot. I might be able to twist and warp your perspective into loving me, but it will never be effortless. It will always creak and click with the steam-driven whirrs of my golem that you are. And when your love comes, I will be forgotten. You will shed your rusted exoskelton, and be free.
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I still miss you, after all these years. The fact that you didn't want me - truly want me - burns like acid in my heart, even now. I think that you may be the only person who ever truly understood me when I talked, even now, and with all this knowledge, you didn't want me. I know I should see it like just simple incompatibility, but even now I can't help but see it as a failing.
A hollow, bitter emptiness: unloved and unloveable.
I hadn't actually taken a second to look around in a while. But, once I did, and I got an outside perspective, I realized how fucking amazing so much of what I am doing right now is.
I do want to kiss you, I'm just freaked out by it.
I'm glad I embarked on this journey. I think I will be better for it.
I will create my "Don't vote for the new Conservatives" pamphlets. It would be wrong not to.
I'm not sure I've ever enjoyed a social function less.
Currently Listening: KiD CuDi - A KiD Named CuDi (album d/l)