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Infected Mushroom and Sunshine make for the best days.
Time to start the second to last essay. This should be interesting, but considering he just finished laying out what he wants in each paragraph, I think I can handle it. It might be a red-eye paper though.
Last WiG game, this could be interesting *cackles*
Now to burry myself in racism.
I should be tired but seeing as I ate dinner about an hour ago I'm not so much.
Spring Mysteries was very, very good. Setting up shrines was very cool as was being a part of many other things. I'm quite happy and amuses at my dedication and the gifts bestowed upon me from him. I was surprised at the amount of time I spend doing my own thing or just hanging out. Last year I remember being slightly upset as I didn't have enough time to do all the things I wanted. Grow up time has started, and I welcome it.
Essays and tests will consume me for the next two weeks and will force me to neglect the things I would rather be doing. It will soon be over and I can regain my life again.
My mom brought me wonderful gifts when she returned from her trip to watch my brother play hockey. It's unfortunate that he'll be coming home soon as it will mean his team did not do well in the playoffs, but that was somewhat expected. It will be weird having a four person family again, as it has been for the last three years. Such a broken family.
So I'm wondering who wants to go on a trip or three with me late next yearish and possibly early the year afterish. I'm open to going basically anywhere though I do have my ideas of where I'd like to stop at (as mentioned before), but I'm thinking that Christmas or just after Christmas (including new years) will be spent in Mexico. I'd probably be able to bring one or two other people with me as we would be staying on my Grandfather's boat. The trips would probably be between two or three weeks and rather spaced apart (if there was more then one that appealed to you). I don't have to worry about it for a while but I'm just mentioning it as I've been thinking about it during the past few weeks. Let me know. (though I doubt I'll get a response).
I think I can nod off to sleep now. I'm glad my friends are back to normal, however cool they were before. Michael I miss you. We need to talk again soon. Jhayne, we need to visit. Tyler, I shall drag you to capoeira soon. To all: once I am out of essay hell, conversation needs to be made.
*walks away humming the tune to 'The Twelve Days of Smf'*
I keep reaching out my hands to stop time and it continues to slip through my fingers. I think I have enough and somehow, just a little has managed to escape and it throws off the whole system of things.
There is much to do and I'm doing my best to keep up. I feel a couple of sleep deprived nights are coming up which is the last thing I need before SMF. THREE DAYS! and I'll be in a little place called Fort Flaggler running around in a cape with a bunch of witches humming "The Twelve Days of SMF" and setting up shrines.
Before then, I have an essay to begin (hopefully) and a Midterm to study for, oh and an essay to edit and hand in. Oh, the joy.
Weddings make me meloncholy. They make me wonder if I'm ever going to have one. And what kind of person I would be bonded to. They also make me notice thoes who are and aren't happy.
I dropped the boquet after its short flight. I was only in it for the competition; to be an obsticle.
It's time to teach my Mom how to register for my courses for me. Here's hoping I manage to get into all of them.
Good night.
*does a dance*
Essay 1 of 3 is done! Ok so it'll need some editing and a finished bib. but other then that it's very finished. And that makes me happy. I only had to sacrifice Tylers coming home party *sulk*. Oh well, Jen's wedding is tomorrow so I can socialize it up then.
Speaking of Tomorrow: List of things to do:
- Pin and cut out cloak cloth
- Visit second hand stores looking for rugs for SMF
- Get pretty *ugh*
- Buy a present .... oops
One last little note. I think I'm broken-ish again. Both my knees and my right ankle are not happy with me. I didn't go to capoeira today and I'm not going tomorrow either. I feel like a bum but I need to heal a bit me-thinks. *cheers for team advil!*
Anyway my pillow calls... sweet sweet pillow.
I'm going to fall down now.
*thud*
The word of today is:
miffed.
I just deleted the most amusing thing I've seen in a long while. A blog spammer wrote a message that said "I like this blog a lot. Thanks for keeping all the spammers off of it." *DELETED*
Well, I'm counting down the minutes until I have to go back to work. 26 to go. I've realized that I'm not going to get anymore homework done in that time period, as much as I want to. I managed to be slightly productive in the few hours I had after a much needed nap *pass me a soother* but didn't get started on the massive essays dump I've got heading my way. Oh well, I have until Tuesday to get it written and edited, I just want it done much sooner then that. I will sacrifice my Friday night if I have to so it is finished. Maybe I'll go visit Timmy afterwards.
Last night was the most wonderful night I've had in a long time. Piotr is a wonderful person. After capoiera I visited him. He made me dinner and I brought a bottle of organic red wine. By the end of the night, the pasta had vanished, the bottle was empty and many good conversations were had. He topped off the night with a pagan style back massage that left me feeling better then I have in a long time. After a short lived sleep, I woke up and Piotr made me breakfast, waffles in fact. I was very tempted to skip school and visit with him for the day but I knew I would never get any work done and that is basically not an option right now. Piotr is my hero.
Hopefully I will not drown in homework this week (I'm going to try to write a 10 page essay in less then six hours. That is the goal). I think I'll do the outline while I'm bored in class tomorrow. *Sigh* the joys of being an English major.
Oh and just for general amusement, I think I know when I'll be moving out *PRASE THE GODS!* My BA will be done by the end of fall (2005). I'm going to take the prep courses I need for PDP that spring and then I get a summer OFF! Yes that's right, a whole summer dedicated to me:D. From there I get to make a decision. I can either register for PDP and dive in head first to the magical world of teaching, or I can take a year or so off and have some fun. Maybe even do some traveling (I have a few places I'd like to visit, like go back to Mexico, go scuba diving in Thailand and visit my old Capoiera instructor, Haro (or Bohasha), in Japan. *by the way, if anyone wanted to join me, you'd be welcome to....* But yes. During that summer, before I make those trips (which probably won't be more then a couple of weeks long and spaced apart ( Mexico in the winter for sure), I will move the fuck out. I would do some full time work and probably move to New West. I like where Piotr's apartment is situated and what it looks like *hard wood floors!*. I would also want a roommate, which could be interesting but I'll worry about that when the time comes. This would make me very happy and the idea is sounds more and more appealing as I think about it...
heh, Mom's going to hate me :D
Wow. Last night was awesome.
Friday night I got to chill with Andrea. We watched a couple of movies, ate some brownies with ice cream (mmmm), and later some popcorn. And during this, I constructed my duct tape skirt. It's so awesome... it's basically a wrap-around skit with a criss-cross pattern. So crazy.
Oh and as a side bar, Andrea is a wonderful person. She's helping me out with Hermes shrine and has been doing some fabric shopping for me. She found some wonderful fabric that is exactly what I need and that makes me happy! You are an awesome person my dear.
Saturday was crazy.
Work was irksome (though not as irksome as work today is going to be) but it was short and therefore dealable.
After work came the dash to Nobilis. The game was crazy. Halucia, along with everyone else, still lives. They just get to drop off the face of the earth because Bartleby pissed everyone off. What a dumbass and yay for yet another situation in which Halucia was right. The next character is going to be crazy, if we can manage to pull it off. Oh, and excrutions are HOT!
Then we came home, chilled for a bit and went out for lunch. Upon leaving we neglected to remember to bring keys and therefore we were locked out of the house until 8:30. No good when you need to get dressed for Sin City and need to be there relatively early. Oops. Eventually costumes did get made/put on. I had electrical tape spiralling up both my arms (like gloves) and both my legs (like boots), the new duct tape skirt on, and then a pattern similar to a corset taped onto my torso (oh and the extra edition of TylerÂs sexy hat). The costume was awesome. Everyone looked great. So we, Tim, Rick and I that is, get downtown and wait in line for about an hour and a half and finally make it in. People are pretty. Everyone is beautiful and creative. The music is pretty good. Through the night I was drunk and sobered up, was complimented on my outfit and given a $25 gift certificate by one of the bartenders, I'm assuming for my "clothes", I dance and be merry. I even ventured into the "dungeon" a few times, mostly to try to find a couple of friends with no luck, and just so see what was happening. It was a great night, as it was also Jenn's staggette and it rocked. I think she had a great time but she was so mellow at the end (which might also mean drunk).
Now I'm off to work but first, a shower to try to get the sticky tape residue off. Wee :D
List of things to do in the next week:
- Nobilis (THE LAST ONE WITH THIS CHARACTOR!) *sigh*
- Sin City: the duct tape skirt is finished (though I cheated a bit to make it work)
- Work, alot.
- Write two essays, both 10 to 12 pages long
- Possibly think about what to do for mom's b-day on tuesday (it's not a big thing in my household)
- SLEEP
- Make my cloak (as I have bought fabric for it)
- Visit the doctor
- Visit the dentist
- Capoiera x2
- Be sad about missing my DnD game again.
- Get all needed shrine stuffs.
- And just for fun (even though it's more then a week away if you are counting today) attend Jen's wedding.
I have my mission. Wish me luck.... or something.
The world has become complicated and returned to simple again all within the period of a week. That was rather exciting.
Relationships escape me. I like them and find myself wanting them but when they present themselves I push away. Sometimes almost finding reasons why they shouldn't happen. This is not always the case but it seems to be a running trend that IÂm really getting sick of.
It's cold over here.
But yet, amongst all of this confusion and fear there is a happiness, no, a contentness that has helped sustain me, find some balance. Some of this is caused by an internal balance that seems to slowly coming to an equilibrium. Much of it has come from the support of countless friends of various kinds. Energy has been passed back and forth amongst said people and it is what has been keeping me going through rough times.
Spring Mysteries is coming. Despite the many things, and many people, who will be involved with it, I think this is going to be a rather mellow and centering festival, much unlike the last three I've been to. It seems a lot more focused and comfortable compared to the last two. I'm not worried about much like I was last year and have concluded to take everything in stride, one thing at a time. Andrea, a friend from work, will also be accompanying me and I think she's more excited then I am, though I think I'm just on a slightly different level. I'm somewhat nervous about a couple of the things that will be going on, setting up the shrine for one, but I have this underlying certainty that things will be ok in the end.
It's getting warmer.
It is very much past my bed time. I need to start getting more sleep. I promise I'll sleep on the couch tomorrow Tim. Chances are I'll fall asleep as soon as I manage to lie down.
My pillow is calling my name.
Very shortly I'll be doing a presentation that I've been fearing since the beginning of the semester. It will be over with very soon and that will make me a happy girl.
Tonight, Capoiera and a date.... I don't know how well it's going to turn out. We have some fundamental differences of opinion that seem to have their toes in the waters of "morals" so we'll have to see.
Saturday is coffee with clay (and possibly a few others from that neck of the woods). It's a sorry excuse for the hike we were going to take but I have Jen's wedding shower to attend so it was postponed. So, yeah, this is my second wedding shower. I'm so lost at this wedding thing. I think I need someone to guide me through all the crazy rituals and what not. I'm glad that marriage is a very distant point of light down a rather long tunnel and am happy to let other people do it instead.
Sunday I work and then helping him move a fridge (holla for the truck!). I think we're doing something after but I'm not quite sure what so yeah... wee!
Ok, enough distractions, time to make sure I'm actually ready for this....
For better or for worse, in one hour and it'll all be over.
I'm about to do a bit more research before I go talk to the sarcastic prof. of doom. Despite being an asshole he's a fairly amusing guy. He also tore a strip (though inadvertently) out of the presenter we had last week (though I must admit she really did deserve it). I'm very worried about this presentation (and it doesn't help that I (of all people) hate talking in public. I don't mind doing it within groups of friends or about things I'm incredibly knowledgeable about but this is just scary. Stupid Lycidas. Stupid Paradise Lost. Stupid me.
In other news. I got my first paper back. I got a C which is about what I thought I would get as it was a red-eye paper. The thing I found funny was that it had such a low mark because of my retarded grammar (which makes since because the only editing I did was after three hours of sleep (if that). So yeah. The plan: Get things done earlier and get Anthony (and/or who ever else would like to).
Wee! ('n stuff).