The Naviverse

The world has become complicated and returned to simple again all within the period of a week. That was rather exciting.

Relationships escape me. I like them and find myself wanting them but when they present themselves I push away. Sometimes almost finding reasons why they shouldn't happen. This is not always the case but it seems to be a running trend that I’m really getting sick of.

It's cold over here.

But yet, amongst all of this confusion and fear there is a happiness, no, a contentness that has helped sustain me, find some balance. Some of this is caused by an internal balance that seems to slowly coming to an equilibrium. Much of it has come from the support of countless friends of various kinds. Energy has been passed back and forth amongst said people and it is what has been keeping me going through rough times.

Spring Mysteries is coming. Despite the many things, and many people, who will be involved with it, I think this is going to be a rather mellow and centering festival, much unlike the last three I've been to. It seems a lot more focused and comfortable compared to the last two. I'm not worried about much like I was last year and have concluded to take everything in stride, one thing at a time. Andrea, a friend from work, will also be accompanying me and I think she's more excited then I am, though I think I'm just on a slightly different level. I'm somewhat nervous about a couple of the things that will be going on, setting up the shrine for one, but I have this underlying certainty that things will be ok in the end.

It's getting warmer.

It is very much past my bed time. I need to start getting more sleep. I promise I'll sleep on the couch tomorrow Tim. Chances are I'll fall asleep as soon as I manage to lie down.

My pillow is calling my name.