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Dude. Classes rocked today. I watched Othello (with Laurence Fishburne and Kenneth Branagh as Iago... SO BRILLIANT!). Then I had a real class that acutally managed to keep my attention for the entire class (this is amazing). Then I watched the rest of Othello (while sharing popcorn with several classmates). Then I had the last class in which we drank wine and talked about how fait affects Oedipus. Dude. I think that's about the only word I could come up with.

I'm cold. I'm goin to bed.

Posted by Navi at 10:22 PM | Permalink | Comments (4)

I think I'm going to try to eat something good but at the moment, I still feel like I did when I though I was going to vomit all over the table during class. *Note* this was not due to the content of the class.

Tomorrow, that being Wednesday, I plan to take a trip down to Chinatown. I need to find some money with holes in it *grin* and then go somewhere else to find a black, child sized tie. I will then be reading until my brain explodes. Anyone want to join me for some or all of the escipade? *Looks at Andrew* Anyone is welcome *and would be incredably appreciated. The plan is to be down town for eleven, or possibly earlier. I will be going to capoiera at 6pm (i think) and plan to transit for basically all of this adventure.

So who's with me? *crowd chears*

Posted by Navi at 12:50 PM | Permalink

The entirety of yesterday was one incredible challenge after another.

Sleep came to me at about 2:30am due to the heat in my room. I woke up three times, dreading the brief thought that I was actually awake. I woke up to go to work at 4:55am. This was going to be a difficult day.

Work consisted of many people at our desk, shifting impatiently for turn whilst three people with training badges on and one who had only recently taken hers off. I would be doing three orders at a time while they were doing just one. In the process of this, at least two would have asked me a question about something. To make it worse, the closer didn't come in after I left at three. This causes problems. I hope they were ok. *Like a mother to her children.*

Then I hurried to Garou. The game is slightly taxing *just a tad* as it forces me to deal with things that I don't like dealing with but should anyway *so I live slightly existentially through my character; it hasn't hurt me yet* I'm glad that I had an internal monologue that didn't switch to real life. It was a good.... role playing experience. It makes my headaches go away.

I had some dinner, it bit a chunk out of my positive credit card debt. Eating is expensive, I think I'll just stop.

My situation is... weird. I like being a councillor but things have changed. And I don't like it. The situation was good for this heavenly brief moment in time but now it's starting to show is ugly side and I'm starting to re-think things. *I love my process of learning. Go full tilt until you fuck something up.*

I went to fire. My eyebrows and eyelashes now have white tips. Smart move genius. *I think I'm going to take that test*. I did miss fire though, and can't wait to become good at my poi. We had a bunch of drums to accompany us this time. It had the feeling of the drum circles at SMF. Gods I miss that feeling.

I think I need more secrets. That sounds funny I know but I think I'm going to keep my mouth shut a little more... or at least find the mute button on my voice box.

Posted by Navi at 9:30 AM | Permalink | Comments (1)

Today. Today was warm. Today was busy and people running around, asking questions, recieving answers correct or incorrect. Today I was smiled at and glaired at. Today I managed to have a meal with my family. Today I was forgotten. Today I felt true warmth when discovering that my father carries a grade six picture of me in his wallet. Today I cried for the first time in two months. Today I purchased my first Capoeira cd. Today I was sent the most awesome text message from andrea who quoth: "Crisis of faith - can i in good conscience kill mosquitos while still recognizing that the goddess is inherent in ALL parts of the natural universe?". Today felt fast, or rather, I was going slowly while the world moved quickly around me. Today, I kept driving.

Posted by Navi at 10:16 PM | Permalink

The world of ok.

Not much happened today. Late shifts seem to completely consume the entire day. All I managed to acomplish was a quick swim and to pick up my mask from tim's and do a quick slurpee run after work.

So now it's time to go to bed again. My head's a'spinnin' with random gaming/larping and homeworky thoughts. Both need to be acomplished or developed soon. My sanity depends on it. Sleep isn't feeling like it's going to come easy tonight and knowing I have to be up at seven am isn't helping that much.

Tommorrow might consist of coffee with Trisan, if he manages to give me a ring. If not I may visit tim again *grin*. Only for a short while though... *shakes fist at early morning work*.

Today was a good day. Not as wonderful as yesterday but good. *Eugene! Why didn't you call me back??? we missed you!* I think tomorrow will be too. It will probably consist of reading a lot if I don't manage to find Tristan. Both outcomes are positive. I'm going to be tired on sunday.

Oh! OH! I'm coming to fire on Sunday come hell or high water *possibly with Ryan in tow*. I plan on simply being a firefly and actually picking up my poi again. I hope this venture actually works out this time *knocks on own head*.

Wow, this is random and useless. It's not even pretty. It's unfortunate; that what this is. Hell, I feel sorry for you having to read this. I guess I could just call you a sucker. Heh, Sucker.

Posted by Navi at 11:41 PM | Permalink | Comments (3)

There are simply no other words to explain my previous day. All around it was just what I needed, especially considering the day that preluded it.

I woke up for school decently quickly for only getting 5 and a bit hours of sleep. I made it to school, just about on time (time enough to write the short quiz, and question four was: Are you present? Yes/No. I love Turston). I read in the sun for forty five minutes or so, managing to burn myself slightly in the process) and then had my second class with no major problems. I then met up with Andrew and we had a blast at Dress Sew. I now have all the pieces I need for my Nobilis Costume, it just needs to be constructed. Oh, and the cuffs do rock my blue-haired friend.

We were then picked up by Pat, Chris and Jahyne and went to the beach. Do you know how long it's been since I went to the beach during the day when it was sunny? A really fuggin long time. I mellowed out with my head on Andrews’s stomach while reading... very cool. I waded in the water with Jahyne and had to catcher her twice due to evil seaweed. We found out we had more in common then we originally thought. Further conversations are needed. Mathew joined us and many conversations were had, along with many antics... I can't wait for pictures.

Then we toodled off to The Chai Gallery, on top of East is East, and had a most splendid meal. The food upstairs is incredible, the atmosphere, despite the fact that the place was empty when we got there, was wonderful and dessert made me melt. Go there. You can split a meal between two people for less then $10 bucks each. It's great. I was able to see Patrick, Tim, and Ryan there too, with an appearance from Rick and Travis at the end (he cut his hair off!). Mmmm, Chai.

Then off we traipsed to Banyon Books. Wow. That's a lot of stuff. It was very cool for the short time we were there. I managed, in that time, to find a Tibetan bowl that suited me well and decided to spend the money to buy it. I'd been meaning to do so for a while so it made me happy.

Ryan left us *pout* and Travis gave Rick, Tim and I a ride back to new west. Many good conversations were had. This just topped off my day. Fog was cleared and more things passed on. Things are starting to fall in place and my mind is beginning to quiet.

Tomorrow will be filled with reading and work but I think I'll be able to handle it. After this weekend, some hardcore reading is to be done, along with a short presentation to be prepared and an essay to write the following weekend. I think I'll spend most of my reading time outside... likely in the shade but being outside will make things easier. Thank-you to all who made this day, well, awesome.

Posted by Navi at 12:05 AM | Permalink | Comments (3)

Maybe it's just because today is today. There has to be some reason but things are PISSING ME OFF. Between customers repeating their orders to me three times when I acknowledged that I understood the first time (and it's all on the fucking lable anyway), and my father bitching at me about leaving the freezer door open when I'm currently scanning to see if there is anything that I can make and consume in less then twenty mintues *note: I hadn't had the door open for more then a minute* I'm ready to start kicking faces and throwing paint cans.

Maybe I'm just doing what Char was saying. Burning the candle at both ends. I think there are more wicks then just those two. I keep trying to convince myself I'm fine... but I don't think I am... I think after I get this week over with, it's time for some hardcore me and me + homework time get caught up and settled down. And in the mean time, do my best not to give the costomers, and my dad, new breathing holes.

Posted by Navi at 5:44 PM | Permalink | Comments (2)

I've been neglectful. Neglectful of so many things it's ridiculous. School has been put on the back burner and then attempted to burn the house down. I'm currently grabbing the baking soda and lighting a candle. Unfortunately in that event Derek was burnt and I've remembered why I don't like guilt. I was rid of that old friend for a while and I was not pleased to see him back. Again I apologize but that's not going to bring him sleep.

This weekend has been a write off. I can't decide if I needed it as much as I think I did. Very little was accomplished but I got to experience a feeling of "free time", something that I miss dearly. Gods I can't wait until April. Until then, much reading shall be dealt with before I get myself in trouble. This shall be slotted in amongst the hunt for a jacket for Garou, the construction of a Nobilis costume, work, capoiera and (if weather permits) fire-play. Oh! and coffee with Tristan. I think I'm going to hibernate again for a while, *shiver* spend more time at home. Maybe I'll find a nice spot on my grass in the back yard and finish "The Woman in White". Finish him.

It's time to edit and photo-copy my presentation for tonight. I hate presentations. Even if it's only reading a piece of paper aloud in class, I still hate it. I just want to go home and read. And sleep. I wish I could do both at the same time. Wouldn't life be grand?

When I'm alone, I keep thinking the zombies are going to get me. That I'm going to turn around and there will be a dead guy with a stump for an arm, and blood covering his mouth and shirt, running full tilt at me for a chance to taste my flesh.

*giggles* Karen licked me yesterday. She also made out with me briefly. That was interesting. And somewhat rare for me. So much interesting yesterday. *chuckles* and all the women were in the kitchen... well briefly anyway.

Posted by Navi at 3:45 PM | Permalink

I hate that question, it tends to bring out fantastic in my slightly wild and boundless imagination. The concept that was introduced to me and tends to haunt me somewhat is as follows: There must be a possibility of it happening, no matter how miniscule, because we're able to imagine its existence. This kind of thing tends to get me in trouble and forces me to obligate people like Andrew into talking me to sleep.

Hurray for no little people school tomorrow. I need the time to do the homework I should have been doing today.

This is weird. This is good, I think, but weird. The topics of boys shall not be breached unless I breach it first. Call me touchy or moody but I figured I'm entitled to it once in a while... I am female after-all and it has to show sometime *chuckles*.

I'm rather mad as it looks like I'm going to be missing the Batizado (the huge event that takes place once a year in which other capoiera schools come visit and we get tested to progress in cord levels, similar to the belt levels) as it is directly over the Dragon Con weekend. This, by the by, figures! Oh well. Con's ticket is already purchased and I have my con ticket being used as a book mark in Tim's copy of the Witches Bible. *sigh* I just can't win.

Up coming schedule; Monday: work (12.5-4.5), capoiera, Andrew/Ian's party and Chris'; Tuesday: School day of doom; Wednesday: SLEEP IN!/swim, work 2-11; Thursday: School till one, capoiera that night. Friday: pending hopefully working but we'll see.... the rest of the week will come later. MEWHAHAHAHAH

Oh, right. And I finally saw Episode II. I see what everyone was so disappointed over. I, of all people, had issues enjoying the movie, so weird.

Good-by Kim (Hands), have a good/safe trip to NY. See you in six months(ish).

Posted by Navi at 11:27 PM | Permalink

Damnit. All I wanted was a night-cap and there was no freekin bailies.

HORRAY!!! I acutally can get more then eight hours of sleep tonight. And I think I will!

Posted by Navi at 10:47 PM | Permalink

I need, NEED, to calm down. And that's in general not solely at this moment.

I'm tired, but so over tired that sleep isn't seeming to come right away. Now of course that I have written this my eyes are starting to get heavy and my breathing slows to a steady pace. I don't expect much sleep in the next while. I can't seem to get any. Tomorrow I'm going from work to bed, reading before I sleep if I must but there will be no interlude... I need at least nine hours to even possibly be functional through the weekend.

I have officially jumped onto the star wars bandwagon. *bumps along* though officially I've only seen Episodes 1 and 3 ... I need to fill in the gaps so I want to propose a public marathon at some point in time. I don't have any concrete dates and chances are it's going to be last minute (and I'll do my best to not make it in delta as people will not want to come out this far... *pout*) so I'll let you know... this will probably have to wait until all of the movies are out unless we want to tromp back to the theatre (which I doubt) and see it again there. I'm still thinking it's going to be in Numerical order as opposed to chronologically. Suggestions?

Anyway. It's past my bed time.

Oh and I *heart* Hayden Christensen. Yeah, I like them pretty.

Posted by Navi at 2:08 AM | Permalink | Comments (3)

Why is it that children scream when they hear the bells ring at school?

Many things going on as of late. Much reading and homework (what I probably will spend much of my free time doing in the next little while). I'm very glad I enjoy reading. Soon I shall be ahead again and all will be well.

It's doubtful that I'll be going to see StarWars tomorrow. Apparently I was one off in getting a ticket so I shall be staying at home and sleeping or something of the sort. Rather disappointing. There is hope but it's a distant one.

I have a fairly large blister that has popped under the ball of my foot. It's only torn on one side. I'm tempted to put a dime in the pocket. Speaking of capo, I'm disappointed. I'm probably going to miss my first Batizado (this being the event when you get to progress to a cord level) as it might be right over Dragon Con. *booo* it's still pending so I'll have to see but I have this feeling.....

Aphid's are eating my plants. I think It's time to move them outside and let the Ladybugs go after them. My poor celantro.

Posted by Navi at 10:25 PM | Permalink

Wow, the pixie was let out last night, and the night was proof why that only happens once in a while. I love the feeling though. Rather wild, and bordering on crazy, but she can get me into trouble.

Unexpected was the word of the night. I saw many peoples I miss, like STEVE who I haven’t seen since grade 12 in creative writing. It's insane, and I miss him.

My personal character sheet must have the social trait "magnetic" on it.

Crazy dream last night. My mom and I were staying in this beautiful log cabin (which was more like a hotel). Mom was helping fix and refinish parts of it on a huge orange ladder (which would be strange for my mom). At one point of time I went to see a ritual play that was sort of like spring mysteries but slightly different (and not as good) but Tim was in it, dressed and I believe acting in the place of Apollo, and Rick was there too, dressed as an Atlantian (yes even with the sparkly face make-up) and was demonstrating where the chakras were on me. The weirdest part was that a guy from work named Mark was playing Zeus (if I remember correctly). There might have been other people I know but I don't remember now. It was very strange. Oh then I went back to the hotel and asked if mom and I could move in but she said it was too unstable as we could get booted out if a large party came and wanted our rooms (as was apparently happening to a lady that already lived there in a month). Another weird thing. Mom was genuinely happy in a way resembling that her and dad were no longer together and at each other’s throats (oh and she went to the play which was weirder).

Bah, not going to sin tonight *due to my lack of military issue and lack of others going, plus the friend I want to bring whom I don't want to crowd with people on her first trip to a fetish club* Going to visit Tim and other people at Timmy's (the person, not the doughnut shop tomorrow). Excited and mellow. Work is going to be long.

Posted by Navi at 8:14 AM | Permalink | Comments (2)

1. No time to Read with much reading to do.

2. No time to Visit friends and when I do I feel like I should be reading.

3. Working, when I should be reading or visiting with friends (unfortunately in that order).

4. There is no time for four.

5. Missing out on things due to lack of time mostly spent reading and working.

Solution: Wait for the summer to finish... or break work's brain and request more time off, which may or may not go well. Hmmm maybe I could just get injured and get away with workers comp.... nah, then I couldn't do capoeira. I guess I'm stuck with it... feel free to call? I miss you guys.

PS: I'm well aware I did this to myself, but I didn't expect to have to read quite this much... once class is simply atrocious in its reading list and time frames. Vanity Fair is like three inches thick, as id David Copper Field. Jane Eyre took four days and I'm guessing Women in White and the other one (which I'm too tired to go find) will take about the same amount of time. Well, "Multitask" will be my motto for the next four months. I'm really going to miss people...

Posted by Navi at 11:41 PM | Permalink | Comments (4)

Sleep just isn't going to happen tonight. I doubt I'll get much more then four hours sleep, if that. The day of doom is going to be doomy with extra doom-sauce on it... and I have so much reading to do. *sigh* behind already.

Posted by Navi at 12:21 AM | Permalink | Comments (2)

It was a long time in coming but it's finally here. I'm in the lower stage of life (which comes and goes at its own pleasure apparently). Resisting apathy sucks in everything except physical activity *because it's a distraction* and my brain is in overdrive, over analysing every detail that I could possibly consider with a flair for the half empty cup.

There is so much to do. I have just realized that I will not be home for dinner with my family for most of my summer. Wow, speaking of such things, I haven’t had dinner with my family in quite possibly over a week. That's incredibly... strange.

I'm glad I don't have to work tomorrow. The longer I look at this schedule the more I feel the need to apologize if I fall off the edge of the earth and you don't hear from me for a while. Well, you could always join capoeira and come with me, or one of my larps, ... or perhaps endeavour to work at home depot *snicker*. Hopefully with the new people I'll have a few less shifts... I really don't know how they can fit this many hours in my schedule... no, wait... I do... they gave me 36 hours. Oh well, at least I'm guaranteed at least one day free of work not including my day of doom, a week.

This entry makes no sense. Perfect.

I've had a Portishead song in my head all day. It's beginning to become, appropriately enough, my personal anthem: Glory Box

Oh, and I'm tired of being the village idiot.

Back to Jane Eyre. Yay, something positive.

Posted by Navi at 11:13 PM | Permalink

Everytime I see there's a new comment to my blog, I get a little excited... but it keeps being spam. *sigh*

Wow. I'm proud of me. I'm eating less, eating better (mostly anyway), and have managed to do somewhat strenuious activity for the last three days straight. Capoeira twice in a row (*giggles - and got to see a friend that I rather enjoy seeing*) and swimming this morning. I'm almost tempted to wake up tomorrow and go for a swim before work but I think I need the day off. Maybe I'll go before work on Sunday and then FIRE THAT NIGHT! man I miss it.

Tomorrow is going to rock. I'm thinking I'm going to bring my camera again. 7 veils of glory.

Tis time to read and sleep. Love to all.

Posted by Navi at 12:25 AM | Permalink | Comments (7)

It was a good day yesterday. Sleep was not in abundance but for the moment I'm content with living in the delusion that I'm invincible and sleep is optional. Work went surprisingly well. Apparently I'm one of the best "sales associates" in the store as I scored the highest score after an encounter with a "mystery shopper" who was evaluating me. I only missed one question and therefore received 95%, one of the highest that has been received in the store and the highest out of that batch of unsuspecting victims. Work itself was just crazy enough to keep the time from lagging to much.

From there I stopped at home quickly and then headed to capoeira. I've realized how much I need to practice and that I need someone to practice with. At least I'm starting to learn the sequences that we'll be tested on if we decide we want to go up a level. I think I'm going to try for it... it's complicated though. It's hard to accomplish smoothly. I felt bad for the guy who was teaching me. I'm such a perfectionist when it comes to this. I need to loose some of the immense amounts of lower body weight I no longer have use for. It's mostly muscle left over from skating. Now begins the process of converting it from strength based to cardio based muscle. This summer is going to be fun.

I got a random call from Jahyne too. There is a party at her house and I'm in the area. So I go and despite the sobriety, it's tons of fun. New people, cuddle puddles (10 in one bed!), random conversations and feeding Jahyne were all incredibly amusing, despite the lack of sleep that was had. Much fun, much thanks.

My back is peeling. Yay.

I think it's time to attempt to find my class today. Much Love.

Posted by Navi at 10:48 AM | Permalink

I don't like missing things. *wow, what a stunning epiphany* I miss certain feelings. I remember them and despise thinking about them due to their absence and the coping methods I've found to fill the gaping voids where they used to exist. I want to paint another mask, as soon.

I miss people. At this moment I'm craving a conversation with Michael but he's not returning my posts. I want to visit him soon, if he has time. I miss many people, but after I've neglected to talk to them for a while, I become scared to call them, afraid they'll be angry because I haven't talked to them sooner.

I miss events. I want to do everything. I'm aware that this is simply not possible but it doesn't seem to matter, I want to do it anyway.

And finally, for now, I miss theatre and being a part of it. Probably not on the stage, but being a part of the background stage crew or even in the pit. Maybe soon I can remedy this. I don't know how but maybe.

Yay, Michael's come to talk, but not for long I suspect.

Exercise is good. And a food journal is going to begin soon. Nothing like guilt to fix your poor diet habits.

13 hours of school is going to be too long. And 6am is too early to work the next morning.

Beltane was wonderful in both places I celebrated it. A very appreciative thank you for all involved. Tim, the horns suit you much to well. Cella, I want a pair.

The attempt to go to bed begins now. Wish me luck.

Posted by Navi at 11:45 PM | Permalink

I like surprises. We got to surprise Rick yesterday. It was so much fun... I love how most peoples first reaction is to run towards the door. The party was great overall, for me anyway. There was much drinking, (oh right, my Gin is still at Neil and Dereks), much laughter and much talking which is very good. And don't forget the fish bowl. I hope your birthday was good Ricky... and now you get another party :D (*Can't wait until Saturday!*)

Work is getting busy. There are two many people. It's rare to see me getting stressed out at work but I think it's going to happen a little lot this next month.

Ew school in three days. I'm not even going to think about that right now.

Mimi is still a wonderful person.

Garou today, Beltain part one for me today, Fire today (though I'll be stuck as a firefly if I manage to go). Things tomorrow. And that's where my pre summer break stops. Better make the best of it....

*Runs to get into Garou stuffs and go to tea*

Posted by Navi at 11:10 AM | Permalink