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March 30, 2006

The Last Stretch

It's all organized. All shall be done by the 19th. Most things will be done by the 19th. I currently have 3 essays, 1 presentation, 1 revision and 3 finals between me and no school for two semesters. That's right two. This makes me happier then anything. I need the break from constant stress so much.

I get to paint. I'm so excited. I get to make Andrew's house clean and pretty. I plan to do most of it by myself. I miss doing work and it will give me a sense of acomplishment. If anyone wants to simply keep me company while i'm doing it i would be greatful. I miss company.

I'm excited about everything right now. I might acutally manage to get stuff done effeciently due to having this awesome motivation to get it the fuck overwith.

I even get to start capoiera soon too.... i'll probably wait until after April because I don' t want to waist moneys, though i might do a drop in at the end of april... anyone wanna come?

Oh and i'm starting in a new larp. I like the character i've managed to come up with and we'll see what happends with this one. It's vampire but i don't think i'm too worried yet... I just want to help it get started....

Anyway i should probably be paying attention to class even though I really don't want to. I'll get over it.... WEE! I'm almost done *does a jig*

March 28, 2006

My last Morning was Yesterday.

I hate being this uncoordinated. I'm glad I'm not closing tonight but work might be frightening.

I think I should not be doing this procrastonating thing. I'm just waiting to get sick from this. I'll laugh, sort of.

So, sleep when I get home and do presesentation prep in the morning? Or Struggle through it on no sleep and pray....

maybe I will sleep first. Mom will be so confused when I just show up and fall down.

I guess I should pat attention to class. I'm worried about fallng asleep if I do.

*head bobs*

March 23, 2006

The First All Nighter of the Season

Beth is not the only one pulling an all nighter. I even get to do two presentations tomorrow... one of which isn't written yet. That will happen after I have something to eat. I will be reading right off the page. None of this "proper presentation etiquette" for me.

It is now slurpee time. I need the caffeen.

March 18, 2006


Original Picture by Cabbit. Edited by NoMoon.

I'm so ammused. I managed to code the above credits just by looking at other sources and using my noggen. Small fries for other people, amusing for me. Especially in the morning.

Today will be an event. It will consist of forming one 10 min presentation with a handout for a class on Rhetoric *dun dun duuuuuuuuuN*, one 2000 word essay on a book titled Wild Dogs, and a Rhetoric paper of 4000 words (and the longest paper of the semester). I am not ammused. The worst part is that if not all of this is done, there will be no time to acutally finish all the things that I have to do.... blasted work. I think I'm going to try to trade a shift or two this week so I can actually manage to get it all done.

Andrew is on night shift. I guess this means I have six hours until he wakes up of undesterbed time to just write. Maybe I can get two out of the three done while he's sleeping. That would be nice. Then I could chill with him for an hour or two before I can get the last essay started. *sigh* This should be the last full chaios week. I have to write 3 papers and give 3 presentations, one of each on each of the three days of school I have a week. Next week is not as bad. I have three papers to write and one to revise (a course-planned revision): two 3000 words and a 2500 word. Oh and a take home final of some sort. Then there are two more exams... wee. So long as I manage to keep my head above the surface.

I got to see people yesterday. I wish I could do more of that. I really miss it. I was literally drunk from the amount of people around me. I takes no time to forget what that feels like.

I also talked to Troy yesterday. It strange to talk about things like signing deals. He said his situation was weird because he was such a low draft (7th round) but was top scorer in the league. Number like 2 mil with a 40,000 signing bonus for a 3 year contract came out. I think that was his hopeful but not far fetched goal. So weird. He's my little brother. The one I used to get in fights with over who was over the imaginary line that divided our individual sides of the car. Who I used to play computer games with on a very primitive comador 64. Who I would give rides to when he was to drunk to make it home on his own. He's really lucky. He's going to be paid for something that he really loves to do. I wish I had found that.

Time keeps ticking. I need a clock so I can justify the sound in my head. Time to start phase one of opperation "Do-or-Die". Time for the final check: "Specitcals, bresticles, wallet and watch". We'll see if I'm all here after phase one is finished.

March 9, 2006

Well, I Didn't Fail

I got a C/C- instead.... This I can deal with. I'll just have to fix it for the final essay and the final exam. I hope he plans to cancel the first exam mark if my second exam mark is better....

Bloody Rhetoric....

March 7, 2006

I feel like this:

I got an A on my essay.

March 6, 2006

Another Essay

The Weapon of Mass Distraction for today:

What's That Bug?

March 3, 2006

The Countdown

I want to say things. Things that are interesting. But life is banal. There's my computer, there's popcorn, there's water, and there are pages. I've already finished a book I started yesterday. This is giving me hope for when I start reading Joyce tomorrow. The book is a good two inches thick and 939 pages. At the rate I've been going, I could have it done in... 5 days, if I spend at least four hours reading each day. It looks like Up Hill.

There are so many broken people and things around me. I want to fix them but I can hardly keep myself together. I'm not used to this. I don't like this. I don't like me when I'm like this. I'm incredably glad that it's now march and that I'm working my way into the ninth week of hell. I should get an extra level for this.

I miss games of all sorts. I have two larps and two table tops that I'm thinking of possibly taking on (though highly doubtful that I will be taking them all on at the same time). I need the other ways of getting rid of this energy.

Oh capoiera, how I miss thee. The precice movements, the moderatly chalanging base-level acrobatics, the flexablity, the lack of dangerous pain, all the while looking at my opponent in the mirrior, my reflection.

Thirty days until freedom. Thirty days until I can go back to living an only moderatly guilty life.

Left Over From Yesterday

Well, it’s over. I think that’s all I can say about it. I think I’ve truly and finally finished failing my first exam. I think it was also the first time that I’ve ever had exam anxiety and wow, that’s relatively powerless. I got over it part way through the exam but no where near enough time make up for the lost time. I’m not impressed.

So what am I doing tonight? I’m going to read until around 9:00 and have some leftovers to eat for dinner and then play some sort of game, possibly Katamari, until Andrew gets home. I think that’s the only way I’m actually going to be able to deal with the day. To actually relax but at the same time get some work done. If people want to join me they’re welcome to. 9:00 I shall be free, though I’m picking up Andrew at 11:00 from work.

Fuck this day. Hopefully it won’t carry over tomorrow.