Theatre
Theatre does strange things to me.
It seems as if every time I go out and watch theatre, from college play to giant musical, something bizarre happens to me. I can't function properly, I can't think straight, I just continue to think about the experience until it eventually fades from clear memory. Sometimes it only takes a day, but sometimes I can spend weeks all knotted up in this little obsession. What do I think about? The actors, the set, the lines that "popped", the moments that worked exquisitely... the whole experience. If I could, I'd go from opening to closing night, every show. And it hurts...
The show I saw Friday night was great. Not the best I've ever seen, not even better than "A Midsummer Night's Dream" that I saw practically the same cast perform a few months ago. Still, I'm not going to be able to shake the feeling I got from it.
I love theatre. It's pretty much the only thing I've poured myself into ever, spent 16 hour days building, painting, lighting, and rehearsing. I think that's why I love LARP so much, especially when it has that Theatre "feel" to it. It gives me a bit of that satisfaction, and so I give it a bit of my commitment. *sigh*
I know I could do Technical theatre, and I would love it dearly. I would probably disappear to the world, but I'd feel a lot more fulfilled in purpose than I do right now. Even still, I'd be dreaming about acting.
Oh, for the nights where I gush like an angst-filled artist.