An Internal Monologue

This evening, I've gone from feeling kind of weather-moody, to a real complete slump. I'm emotionally frustrated, drained in that department beyond belief. I'm not used to getting this way, though I watch friends go through it often.

I really don't know whether to cry or put my head through a wall. I'm just... knotted up. As always, I am carrying around a thousand things unsaid to even the people I care the most about. I know the toll isn't healthy, but I'm not sure how to alleviate it without a torrent of ill-directed and badly delivered statements.

The worst part is, I feel like I've been trying to say these things for ages, but I've never been able to put them together in ways that I could express: Without seriously hurting myself or others.

I've got a lot of work looming over my head, it being the end of the semester, so maybe I'm just subconsciously over-stressing.

I'm very sorry if this sounded like a LiveJournal post, but it's at the absolute forefront of my "Internal Monologue" right now, in a way that little else ever is.

...off to see what sleep brings.