The Edge of the Internet

I have spent the last few days panicked about work because there has been none for me. My work is dependent on the Fraser container port system to keep it fed, as a temp this means that from time to time I am with out work. I’m fighting to give the impression of someone they must be desperate to hire, you know so I can be magnanimous in my generosity in letting them give me a stable source of money I long for. Because of this panic, my clockworks have been slipping tension bands, clogging gears and misfiring pistons. I’ve been alternately depressed, up with insomnia, paranoiac and an all round monster to be near. Which is why I’ve holed up in my book strew fortress of fuck off and leave me alone room since Thursday, well other then the occasional trip to the local for eggnog lattes, my seasonal addiction.

Today I got the call to go back to work tomorrow. It’s like Sisyphus watching the rock finally stay at the top. There will be coffee tonight at the usual, I will be going early to do some writing. I’ve been filling the back of my work book with a story only Jenn will get to read because she was kind enough to be jealous. Such a wonderful gift that was of her to give me.

My DnD game will most likely be coming to an end soon. Its players are more interested in other games, life concerns to even be polite to me about not being able to play. Unless the few who are left in it decided to find others to fill the ranks of their party, this Sunday may well be the last game.

I spent some time flitting about the Internet looking within it for a means of destroying it that I can do for little money or effort. I still wish it to die in a fire, but that is looking more like an atomic initiative, which smacks too much of effort. The Internet must die, but you know in a lazy fashion.

Found some interesting stuff (well to me anyways)

I want to write as well or better then this:
http://www.vqronline.org/articles/2006/fiction/lethem-phil-marketplace/

I want to build one of these:
http://www.gizmodo.com/gadgets/pcs/ancient-computer-found-cant-play-doom-218062.php
So the link is here to remind me that I need to do some research, and learn some metal working skills, or find someone with some… meh I’ll just do the research for the fun of it.

Next I want to have enough time and money to be able to waste both finding this out: http://terranova.blogs.com/terra_nova/2006/11/theres_nothing_.html#more

Last and the reason I wrote so much above to send you spinning off in other directions, all the better to hide this from you, is some pathetic writings of my own. Way back on January 17 I started up an idea, some sort of blog serial story. You know take the time to write a chapter a month… yea that plan went far didn’t it. But with the internet back staring my failures into my face I have been slowly picking old projects up with the intent to finish.

So here is the up load of the first chapter from Jan 17, 2006-11-29
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And here is the second chapter
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(Upon realizing that I wrote that months ago, I'm not sure if I'm happy with it. I may redo/edit it at a later date, before putting the next chapter out. We'll see. At least it was something written.)