Random Thoughts

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by Nettan75.

A shock, like plunging into the ocean, sparkling dark eyes grinning mischeviously, sharp bristling hair sticking out in all directions. A name that ought to be spoken under oak trees. I am genuinely attracted by a few moments of interaction and this is odd for me.

I am attracted to women and it makes me incredibly happy - rather instantaneously too, and it occurs to me that perhaps this is how many people feel when they're attracted to people. When I'm attracted to a guy I become odd, uncomfortable and tend to overanalyze everything. I try to work out whether or not we would be able to stand each other, I tend to want things like companionship more often, I want to have little displays of affection...but at the same time these things, when they happen, tend to feel false. I've never been in a relationship where I wasn't incredibly aware of little things like walking along holding hands. With friends this happens without thinking, with people I'm involved in it becomes something I do because I think that's what I want. And I do want it, to a certain extent. I've loved and enjoyed the company of guys, but the relationships...don't tend to be happy. There will be moments, but the overal feeling not so. This extends to sex too, but I'll spare you that, plus really, I have no comparison as of yet. haha.