Romance
It's funny, we're being conducted by Sidney Harth, a rather large and formiddable old man who you need to be warned about before you play for him. After hearing the stories and the descriptions I was expecting a tyrant, and yes, he's rather brutal - but he also has an excellent ear, and his method of orchestral....intimidation....works. He's nasty and he's cranky, but yeah, there's a reason they get him back each year and I'm certainly not losing out on an opportunity to learn from him. I like that he demands the best from everyone, that he demands we put our stands down and actually play the music out, and I am grateful that he noticed that my stupid, insanely fast, evilly high triplets were not sounding like triplets, because I didn't notice - I thought all the notes were coming out, I was so sure that I went home and recorded it to double check....and goddamn the bastard was right - the second to last note wasn't sounding....still isn't quite there....but at least I know, and yeah, I'll be practicing that arpeggio long after we hand our music back in.
I have an interview for a teaching position at a music academy out in Richmond....it's a long way, but damn it'd be good to start getting paid to do music related stuff.
I need to tell people about my concerts before the day before.
It's snowing and all I want to do is run through the forest laughing, with you this time...in my mind. Maybe I'm losing the completely asocial aspect of myself, maybe that's a good thing, or maybe it simply is, or maybe it's temporary. It's snowing. How can I be responsible and serious when it's snowing? I sit and listen to the romance dance out before me and somehow nothing can taint that. Not even a single bar with seven notes and a slur to a high Eb. Nope. I love that bar goddamn it, and I'll play it over and over again because, you know, taken with the whole peice, it's really cute. yeah. cute. But I don't get cynical when I'm playing it. I can't. And I think maybe that, if nothing else, is a good thing.
It's snowing. snowing. snowing.