time to dig in
I forsee computer language classes being required courses in elementary school, or at least, I would hope for it.
Today was the first time I've been hit on whilst riding transit by a)someone my own age, b)someone attractive and c)someone who was not visibly drunk. Amusingly enough, his pickup lines were way less interesting than any I've heard. He was cute though, and had charming stubble and subtle peircings. I really should have got his number, ah well, that would have been greedy.
I must be giving off some seriously abnormal signals for me.
I have a new camera. It has yet to be tested. I am excited. I crave the abuse of deleteme.
Messy ponytails will be the death of me.
Worlds are collapsing into each other again. I hatelove when this happens...
I am not being productive right now. I should change this...then I could allow myself to dream for a bit. I'm also not happy. This will change after I finish this useless coursework...or I hope it will anyway.
I don't think you know what you want.
Do I? I think so. I've got my time limit for reassessment anyways, and what's a life, but for to waste how one sees fit? I miss the emotional saturation feeling...but I know I don't have time for it. It always seems so stupid afterwards, but at the same time I wouldn't give any of that time back, I choose it because it's wonderful in it's own brutal way. I'd give this time back, I'd rather not be doing a million little pathetic makework things that have nothing to do with anything I'm interested in right now...well ok, it's not that I'm not interested in these courses, it's just that I have a desire to play, to make reeds, to listen to music, to dance, to make more reeds, to play and play and play....and yet the oboe stays in its' case and I sit here trying to make it through critical literature and make an art project that I'm not completely ashamed to hand in. There was a time when I would really have been interested in both these things, but that time isn't now.
one more month.
I need to force myself to eat and listen to music as well as playing it. These things are necessary for my health and I tend to forget that