An exercise in backwards thinking
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Sometimes I just want to curl up and cry for hours. Sadly I'm no longer young enough to be able to stop thinking of the time I'm wasting whilst I'm doing this. At least when I was younger I didn't know why I felt weird and torn apart and lonely all the time.
I can't have some mild, sweet, average person because that mild sweet average person will be afraid of me and will do stupid, idiotic things because of this. The truth is I don't want to be with some mild, sweet, average person because they can't offer me anything other than disappointment.
I sure hate being lonely, though.
I hate even my own thought processes right now.
Whatever. I made reeds. Tomorrow we start again.